mixed emotions after a long run, after the days and nights we have shared together. I do not know why, I am feeling this way, I dont feel happy, I feel sad, I feel like I just wanted to be alone for a moment, or maybe for a long time. Im thankful to God because he gave me this kind of love that I am praying for, but what is wrong with me. Am I not satisfied? did he do something wrong? he may have so many flaws I may have complain because of it but I always stayed, though I tried not to, but my heart stayed that’s why we are still together. Tears were running down my face, as I press the letters  and words coming from my heart. I dont know what my mind is creating, I dont know why I feel like this, I just dont know what I am doing right now. Im in mess. Im all messed up.

mixed emotions

after a long run, after the days and nights we have shared together. I do not know why, I am feeling this way, I dont feel happy, I feel sad, I feel like I just wanted to be alone for a moment, or maybe for a long time.

Im thankful to God because he gave me this kind of love that I am praying for, but what is wrong with me. Am I not satisfied? did he do something wrong? he may have so many flaws I may have complain because of it but I always stayed, though I tried not to, but my heart stayed that’s why we are still together.

Tears were running down my face, as I press the letters  and words coming from my heart. I dont know what my mind is creating, I dont know why I feel like this, I just dont know what I am doing right now. Im in mess. Im all messed up.

WE LEARN FROM EXPERIENCES. WE LIVE TO THE FULLEST. YEAR END BLOG FOR 2008 It’s been a long time since the last time I opened my Multiply account, and I found blogs, and photos that were so memorable, all of them made me smile. Aside from the old and young photos of mine posted there, one of the things posted in my multiply account was the dramatic blogs I have posted before, here’s the best blog I think I have ever posted there.  This was way way back Januray 31 2008. I posted this blog referring/ recovering from a heartbreak, the last heartbreak I had up to date.  jan. 31,2008 (7:56pm) ito ang huling blog entry ko fro 08’, late nga lang kasi ngayon ko lang naipost tong draft na to. year 08’ napaka raming experiences ang naranasan ko dito. MEMORABLE sobra!, maraming beses umiyak si april dito. Di na kasi sya natuto, “TANGA” sabi nga nila sakin. Oo ganyan talga, natatanga ang isang tao para sa isa pang tao. ang tanga nga naman dba? naging tanga man ako, naging masaya naman ako, sa halos isang taon ng “KATANGAHAN” inaasahan ko na ngayong 09’, wala ng “KATANGAHAN” na magaganap. It is the RIGHT CHOICE,RIGHT DECISION,AND THE RIGHT THING TO DO tama ba? Ganun pa man may mga KATANGAHAN nga na nngyari natuto naman ako ngayon. Nagging malaki ang papel nitong KATANGAHAN sa buhay ko, pinahirapan nga ako ng husto nito eh! Nwalan ako ng PRIDE,RESPETO SA SARILI, AT  PAGMAMAHAL SA SARILI. Pero kahit na ganun, tinuruan naman ako nito para mas mag-gain pa ng “strength” na wag sumuko. Since “TANGA” nga ako, hindi nga ako sumuko.. hahah! But then paulit ulit lang ang mga nangyayari, actually it is WORST so napagisip isip ko na this is a perfect reason that IT IS NOT REALLY WORKING OUT so, I’ve decided to quit in this game. No more PAIN right? It is the best way..     2008 was a  great year and a great chance to LEARN. Dahil kahit nga puro katangahan nga ang nagaganap nakilala ko naman ang mga TOTOONG KAIBIGAN  na walang sawang sumuporta,nakinig,nagpayo at ngbigay ng balikat nila para pagpunasan ko ng sipon ko..iiew!     Nerealize ko rin na hindi nasusukat ng bilang ng taon ang  friendship, dahil ngayon, kung sino pa unga mga taong ngayon ko lang nakilala sila pa ung nnjan lagi at umiintndi sayo at sino pa ung taong matagal ko ng nakasama sya pa ang hindi marunong umintindi.                 Gsto ko pasalamatan ang mga taong ngbigay ng kabuluhan ng buhay ko sa taong it, at sa mga taong ngbigay ng konting parte ng kwento ng buhay ko. At sa  kaisa isang taong nagpahirap sakin,nagpaiyak,pagpatawa,nagpasmile,nagpacorny,nagpaselos,nagpasweet, gumalit,nagpatampo,nagalaga, at kung anu anu pang “nagpa’ sakin hahaha! Thanks for all the good things we shared And for the bad things, im still thanking you for that hahahah! Actually it really challenged me                 This year is almost over, at parang ang sarap pang balikan ng lahat noh? Until the last minute sarap alalahanin. Luma na ang lath kung tutuusin and ngayong new year, magkakaron ng bagong April, hindi na ung “cry baby” at ‘tatanga tangang” April  dati. Much better.  As this year ends, I told myself that even if great things ends, something better is just about to start. =) I found it funny, cause this blog  refers to the guy who broke my heart the most, and now seeing him or talking to him these days makes me laugh so much! It’s so fun laughing at things/ mistakes you made before. Well that’s how things works, we tend to move on with things that hurts us, or to remember the people who made us happy, and from time, we will still do the same thing. That’s the way to live our lives. :) WE LEARN FROM EXPERIENCES. WE LIVE TO THE FULLEST.  Page 5 of 1800

WE LEARN FROM EXPERIENCES. WE LIVE TO THE FULLEST.

YEAR END BLOG FOR 2008

It’s been a long time since the last time I opened my Multiply account, and I found blogs, and photos that were so memorable, all of them made me smile.

Aside from the old and young photos of mine posted there, one of the things posted in my multiply account was the dramatic blogs I have posted before, here’s the best blog I think I have ever posted there. 

This was way way back Januray 31 2008. I posted this blog referring/ recovering from a heartbreak, the last heartbreak I had up to date. 

jan. 31,2008 (7:56pm)

ito ang huling blog entry ko fro 08’, late nga lang kasi ngayon ko lang naipost tong draft na to.

year 08’ napaka raming experiences ang naranasan ko dito. MEMORABLE sobra!, maraming beses umiyak si april dito. Di na kasi sya natuto, “TANGA” sabi nga nila sakin. Oo ganyan talga, natatanga ang isang tao para sa isa pang tao. ang tanga nga naman dba?

naging tanga man ako, naging masaya naman ako, sa halos isang taon ng “KATANGAHAN” inaasahan ko na ngayong 09’, wala ng “KATANGAHAN” na magaganap. It is the RIGHT CHOICE,RIGHT DECISION,AND THE RIGHT THING TO DO tama ba? Ganun pa man may mga KATANGAHAN nga na nngyari natuto naman ako ngayon. Nagging malaki ang papel nitong KATANGAHAN sa buhay ko, pinahirapan nga ako ng husto nito eh! Nwalan ako ng PRIDE,RESPETO SA SARILI, AT  PAGMAMAHAL SA SARILI. Pero kahit na ganun, tinuruan naman ako nito para mas mag-gain pa ng “strength” na wag sumuko.

Since “TANGA” nga ako, hindi nga ako sumuko.. hahah! But then paulit ulit lang ang mga nangyayari, actually it is WORST so napagisip isip ko na this is a perfect reason that IT IS NOT REALLY WORKING OUT so, I’ve decided to quit in this game. No more PAIN right? It is the best way..

    2008 was a  great year and a great chance to LEARN. Dahil kahit nga puro katangahan nga ang nagaganap nakilala ko naman ang mga TOTOONG KAIBIGAN  na walang sawang sumuporta,nakinig,nagpayo at ngbigay ng balikat nila para pagpunasan ko ng sipon ko..iiew!

    Nerealize ko rin na hindi nasusukat ng bilang ng taon ang  friendship, dahil ngayon, kung sino pa unga mga taong ngayon ko lang nakilala sila pa ung nnjan lagi at umiintndi sayo at sino pa ung taong matagal ko ng nakasama sya pa ang hindi marunong umintindi.

                Gsto ko pasalamatan ang mga taong ngbigay ng kabuluhan ng buhay ko sa taong it, at sa mga taong ngbigay ng konting parte ng kwento ng buhay ko.

At sa  kaisa isang taong nagpahirap sakin,nagpaiyak,pagpatawa,nagpasmile,nagpacorny,nagpaselos,nagpasweet, gumalit,nagpatampo,nagalaga, at kung anu anu pang “nagpa’ sakin hahaha! Thanks for all the good things we shared And for the bad things, im still thanking you for that hahahah! Actually it really challenged me

                This year is almost over, at parang ang sarap pang balikan ng lahat noh? Until the last minute sarap alalahanin. Luma na ang lath kung tutuusin and ngayong new year, magkakaron ng bagong April, hindi na ung “cry baby” at ‘tatanga tangang” April  dati. Much better.  As this year ends, I told myself that even if great things ends, something better is just about to start. =)

I found it funny, cause this blog  refers to the guy who broke my heart the most, and now seeing him or talking to him these days makes me laugh so much! It’s so fun laughing at things/ mistakes you made before. Well that’s how things works, we tend to move on with things that hurts us, or to remember the people who made us happy, and from time, we will still do the same thing. That’s the way to live our lives. :)


WE LEARN FROM EXPERIENCES. WE LIVE TO THE FULLEST. 

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First Photo for my Birthday Month April. Page 3 of 1800
Traffic in our Lives Traffic in our lives You go, I go You stop,I stop You move, I move You turn, I turn You should move on, But why can’t you move on? When will you move on? you should move on. You better move on, So I can move forward. - A message to my Boyfriend’s ex-lover, wonder how she manages to keep that “bitterness” inside her, She’s making me feel unsecured with our relationship because of the Drama she is keeping inside her. Page 1 of 1800

Traffic in our Lives

Traffic in our lives


You go, I go

You stop,I stop

You move, I move

You turn, I turn

You should move on, But why can’t you move on?

When will you move on? you should move on.

You better move on, So I can move forward.




- A message to my Boyfriend’s ex-lover, wonder how she manages to keep that “bitterness” inside her, She’s making me feel unsecured with our relationship because of the Drama she is keeping inside her.

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Project : 1800 Basically, it was not the 1800 Tequilla I am saying here, it was A project 1800 which is starting right now with this post.   Project 1800 is about posts, blogs, photos and other stuff I can do with tumblr. 1800 Post of photos, or blogs and other stuffs. This project is something that can help me improve finishing projects or finishing interests that I promised myself to do, It is to improve laziness, and tardiness with things I always skip to do such as reaching a goal. With this 1800 project I can see myself progressing with my interest by the help of blogging things which interest me most.  Don’t you think it’s  a Good idea? maybe you should start your own too.  - April

Project : 1800

Basically, it was not the 1800 Tequilla I am saying here, it was A project 1800 which is starting right now with this post.  

Project 1800 is about posts, blogs, photos and other stuff I can do with tumblr.

1800 Post of photos, or blogs and other stuffs. This project is something that can help me improve finishing projects or finishing interests that I promised myself to do, It is to improve laziness, and tardiness with things I always skip to do such as reaching a goal. With this 1800 project I can see myself progressing with my interest by the help of blogging things which interest me most. 

Don’t you think it’s  a Good idea? maybe you should start your own too. 

- April

Bottle Bank : Not your ordinary bottle.  I made this Absolut kurant bottle as my “piggy bank”, Im only putting new issued peso design in this bottle, and just trying to be cute in a savvy way. ;)
Valentines… Since “Valentines” is approaching and it is somehow trending in all social networking sites it gave me an idea to do something for my loved one. I was not that kind of person who will be depressed with valentines because I do not have a date nor to purposely go on a date with my boyfriend since it is Valentines Day. Love is about sharing it everyday and not only during the  so called as Valentines Day. But then it is my first time to give a surprise on a valentine, Im going to make a recorded acoustic playlist all sang by me, and will compile it to a CD. My boyfriend love it every time that I sing, I don’t know maybe he just want to be serenaded, So maybe he’ll like my gift since I will put all of my best efforts upon singing! lol so here’s on my record list : (my voice is compatible with ballad songs,  so I chose acoustic ballad songs and old love songs instead) 1. Eternal Flame (this was his favorite since childhood and was my favorite too) 2. Baby now that I found you               ( a song to make him “kilig” ) 3. When you say nothing at all  4. Power of two  5. The way you look tonight                  (since he definitely love old songs!) 6. I Can’t help falling inlove with you 7. Underneath it all                             ( since he also loves reggae) 8. Can’t smile without you                   (for a giggly cheesy person) 9. Unforgettable  10. Baby I love your way                     ( we both love this!)
BOTTLE BANK : Not your ordinary Bottle. :) 
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